On a rainy day
There have been so many rainy days lately that yesterday seems like today which feels like the day before. In other words, each day is beginning to feel the same. The same worries, the same thoughts, the same choices and the same uncertainty. Not including the same outcome...no change. I can't believe it has been over a week since my last posting.
I have been fighting the temptation to just quit my job, but know that it is always easier to get a job when you have a job. Or it is supposed to be. In the last week I have applied to 25+ companies, with so far no results. Well, I take that back, All State wanted to know if I wanted to start my own office and put up the capital. Sounds great, I take all the risk, they take all the profits. No brainer....for them!
Just for anyone who may be reading this and has not heard the news through the grapevine...I am in need of a job. I am in a sense working for free right now, b/c business has been so slow. Which may be partly my fault, I say jokingly. I prayed a few months ago that if this is not where I am supposed to be that business would dry up. Well in the last 3 months we have sold 2 cars.
A note on finding a job. I am open to just about anything, not in the car business, at least not yet. I'm not that desperate. This whole process has been humbling and somewhat discouraging. You hear for the 8th time in one day they aren't hiring, and you wonder ok where do I go? But alas, I keep on and find strength in the Almighty, although I don't see clearly. And let me be completely transparent, I may say these things, but do I really do them and fully believe them? I strive to and I want to, but sometimes, no I don't. I get down, I question God, I wonder and I anguish. But is that wrong? David did the same thing, even Christ sweated blood. So I feel like I am in good company. As long as I am faithful, and in his will, that's all I want.
One thing that gets me is all the posing that I find myself doing, to win the job. It's disheartening. I wonder if I must pose? But isn't that what a resume is all about. Making your experiences sound better than they really are. I mean, really, created this, started that, proficient in this, excels at excel! It's all bunk in my book. Half the stuff you have to do or say does not really show how you perform on a job. But I don't know any other way to do it. So I just put on my suit and tie and continue to sell myself, hoping God lets me get passionate about my job before I die.
I have been fighting the temptation to just quit my job, but know that it is always easier to get a job when you have a job. Or it is supposed to be. In the last week I have applied to 25+ companies, with so far no results. Well, I take that back, All State wanted to know if I wanted to start my own office and put up the capital. Sounds great, I take all the risk, they take all the profits. No brainer....for them!
Just for anyone who may be reading this and has not heard the news through the grapevine...I am in need of a job. I am in a sense working for free right now, b/c business has been so slow. Which may be partly my fault, I say jokingly. I prayed a few months ago that if this is not where I am supposed to be that business would dry up. Well in the last 3 months we have sold 2 cars.
A note on finding a job. I am open to just about anything, not in the car business, at least not yet. I'm not that desperate. This whole process has been humbling and somewhat discouraging. You hear for the 8th time in one day they aren't hiring, and you wonder ok where do I go? But alas, I keep on and find strength in the Almighty, although I don't see clearly. And let me be completely transparent, I may say these things, but do I really do them and fully believe them? I strive to and I want to, but sometimes, no I don't. I get down, I question God, I wonder and I anguish. But is that wrong? David did the same thing, even Christ sweated blood. So I feel like I am in good company. As long as I am faithful, and in his will, that's all I want.
One thing that gets me is all the posing that I find myself doing, to win the job. It's disheartening. I wonder if I must pose? But isn't that what a resume is all about. Making your experiences sound better than they really are. I mean, really, created this, started that, proficient in this, excels at excel! It's all bunk in my book. Half the stuff you have to do or say does not really show how you perform on a job. But I don't know any other way to do it. So I just put on my suit and tie and continue to sell myself, hoping God lets me get passionate about my job before I die.
posted by JC Boggeman | 1:12 PM
1 Comments:
Understand the posing. Tough stuff.
I'm not sure how to approach but I just go with it. Try to be honest and see if God provides.
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