Personal Reflection and prayer on God and to be changed

What is this life truly about? The pursuit of God’s glory. Giving up my supposed rights. Even saying that I have rights is selfish and about me. God created all and without God, there would be no earth to live on. No food to eat, no water to drink, no people to love, or sexualize. There would be no air to breathe. No blood to pump through my heart. No children would be had. If it were not for God we would not be here. What is the Bible truly about, is this a book that was made for me, to use as a self help book? Yes, and no. Yes to help me know my place, and understand I have no rights but to praise God and give Him glory. And also, No, the Bible is all for Him and about Him, to help me understand who God is, and not to make me better than God. I have replaced His thoughts with random clutter and sometimes use the Bible for my gain. All for me, to make it about me and what it does for me. The same with church, it has to be what I like, when I like it, for as long as I want it. What arrogance is that? If God is real, and the Bible is a story about God and how He created us, and Heaven is where we will meet God, then my assumptions about what this life means for me is wrong. I am not here for my family, for my job, for money, for success, even for failure. I am not here to get what I can, to know more than someone else or to do something better. I am not here to have sex, be happy, get fat or healthy. I am not here to take vacations, climb mountains, swim oceans, go to movies and concerts or see the world. I am here because of God, to see His creation, His family, His work, His artistry, His sustenance, His Fame, His fortune, His success, His world, for His glory, to serve Him, to give Him honor. Everything I think and do are because He gave me life and the ability to sustain and reproduce life for a short period of time. But all I do, and all I am needs to point to Him. Whether good or bad, it all points to Him. I can not be arrogant and prideful enough to think that I am more important than He is, heck to think that I am more important than my neighbor, than another race, than another nation of people, another ideology, or even another believer is egocentric. To believe that God should give everything He is to sustain me and my little life, more than the Billions of people and what trillions of plants and animal is ridiculous, selfish, sinful and rude. That my little broken plate, or torn shirt or spilt milk is worth me getting upset? If I am here for Him My perspective needs to change upward, and outward. To share what it truly means to be human, made in the Image of God. Yes to LOVE GOD first and foremost, to understand what that means, and focus on Him. Then once my mind is rightly thinking, then to Love others, not for me, not to show others I am better, to make me feel better or get into heaven, I can not do this for me, at all, ever. When I do, I need to refocus my attention on God. All I do, shall point to you, Oh God, the holy one, worthy of more than all of our thoughts and praise on earth and in heaven combined. You are better, greater, more awesome than all I can ever or will ever think, read, write, say or speak. One Day maybe I will grasp and understand enough to put my thoughts on a path towards the beginning of proper praise. Give me a fear, Give me an understanding. Grant me wisdom, not for me, but for you. Let my life, my abilities, my all be all for you. Utilize my God given existence in any way you already know you will, just allow me to take the right path, in spite of my sinful selfishness. bind up my sin, my pride my ego my wandering heart and eyes. Capture them for your purposes Oh Lord. Let me be Yours Lord, You can never be only mine, Forgive me for any wrongful thoughts and attitudes, expose the hypocrisy and evil within me, please make it clear. Holy Spirit, cleanse my mind and my body for you, to be clean. Please enter this body that is the Lords, Use my hands to do your work whether writing, holding, helping, hugging, working or loving. Use my eyes to see others as you want me to, to see the world and the path as you deem, use my mind to think thoughts of you, and for your Good, your plan and your will. Use my feet, and guide them to those places and people and opportunities you have preordained. Use my mouth to speak the words of life, the words you would honor me to say that bring honor and glory to your name God. And that might point others towards you. May my ears hear and distinguish between right and wrong, to hear when someone is hurting, and needs help, when someone is ready to turn to you, oh God, that my ears would be able to discern lies and slander, and gossip, that they would not be lured by evil. May I be yours, with a willing, heart, mind and soul. For you and only you. You Lord God in heaven creator of the universe and righteous one, may my life be yours, for as long as you see fit. May YOUR love reign in me. All for you, not for me. Amen